It is that time of year again! Girl Scout Cookies!!! I had looked for some for 2 weeks and couldn't find any...then Josh finally says...I know where some are...sneak!!! So we got 4 boxes (I freeze them so they last until next year) of caramel delights a.k.a. Samoas!!! as seen in the picture above...they are my favorite and another plus is Josh doesn't like coconut, so I don't have any prowlers!
Also, we just began a new book in Ladies Bible class entitled "Keeping Your Balance" by Nancy Eichman. I wanted to read it through before I passed it out for everyone and I have to say it is a very good book. The focus of the book is balancing you spiritual, physical and emotional life. The second chapter really stepped on my toes though. She talked about being a perfectionist and always wanting to have things put away and clean and organized. She also pointed out that people like me sometimes don't like to try new things because...if they can't do it right the first time...why try? This made me cry. I feel this way about college. I am wanting to go back this fall, but I struggled so much the first time (maybe because I was working 2 jobs, maybe because I wasn't totally focused, or maybe because the school was so tough that 1 out of every 2 people there don't make it out!) that I am scared to go back. If I didn't do it right the first time, why put myself through that again. I know that I am married, more mature, more dedicated and not working full time, but it still scares me to death to think about failing at anything!!! This is so hard for me to write. For 3 years now, every time I think about going back to college I feel sick to my stomach. I know I can do it...but my fear of failure overcomes me. This is definately something I need to pray about. I have the best supporter I could ever ask for in my husband. He is the kind that will try until he gets something right...if I can't get it right the first time I quit and move on to something else. I know he will be my biggest help as I go through this process.
On to something else. It seems like everyone is having babies! I know like 10 people that are pregnant or just had a baby. My best friend from high school just had his first son last night and he is so beautiful...well handsome! Congratulations Dustin and Laura on your new Baby Houston Gentry! I get the baby fever sometimes...then I think..."school then baby" or "sell the house then baby". So, either way it will be a while. I think that is perfectly fine though. I would wait until I was 30 if Josh would agree....but he won't.
Well, I am off to get some things accomplished on this rainy west texas day!
Love you all!
2 comments:
I know what you mean about being nervous about failing. Are you still watching "Secret Life"? I watched last week's episode tonight and there was a quote in it that I think is very applicable here.
"I just don't want to fail. If we tried and it didn't work out, at least we tried. If we don't even try, isn't that failing?" <<Ironically, quote made by the character, Ashley :)
I think that you can do it if you put your mind to it. If you don't try, you will always wonder what would have happened if you had...but also consider everything (which I'm sure you are), for instance: will being in school take too much time away from your time with Josh, making you feel guilty and skimp on your school work to spend more time with him? will you use your degree for long enough to outweigh the cost of getting the degree?
That last one is something that I have thought heavily about myself recently. With my current job, I can get my master's for free (they'll pay for a class a semester). This would open up a lot of opportunities for me, but right now, I feel like it would take me away from home too much (simply because they don't offer online classes so I would have to drive to Huntsville 2 or 3 nights a week).
I guess what I'm saying is think about it a lot, pray about it a lot, and know that God will lead you in the way that is best :)
We are doing that book in our ladies' class also. I really like it!
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