New semester...new experiences...new desires

So...I am 3 weeks into a new semester. As usual I panicked unnecessarily the first week. It is always the most overwhelming. We lost 3 students from the program last semester (because of grades) and one Monday (because of anxiety). So, now there are 18 of us. We had our first day of clinicals on Monday...a 10 hour day at the hospital :( yuck! After doing my 'clinical prep' day between services and after evening services on Sunday (and not seeing one second of the 'big game')...I got to the hospital at 0630 ready to go! Me and my partner had the awesome opportunity to go to the OR with our patient! We were able to watch a lap chole (laproscopic cholesystectomy (gallbladder), lap appy (laproscopic appendectomy), and ventral hernia repair (belly button hernia). We spent almost 2 hours in a chilly OR room loving EVERY minute! We even got to wear hospital issued scrubs (this is a big deal to us nursing students). It was so neat to be with the patient through the whole process from pre-op to watching surgery to post-op! It was neat being able to tell the patient about what we saw during his surgery!

As I stood in front of the mirror tonight I got so blue...disgusted really and how far I have let myself go. School is no excuse... I needed time to clear my head so I went for a walk/jog for a while. It is so hard for me to eat healthily when we eat out so often (usually when asked by members of the church). Not only eating out but Josh and I have talked many times about working out...but have never gone one step farther. So over the past few weeks I have attempted working out by myself a few times (because I could not keep up with any of my classmates who have asked me to go with them). I felt good afterwards...but doing it alone is NO fun...I miss ERIKA and our workouts! I need motivation! Then I look at my schedule get overwhelmed and loose the motivation... It is time to drop the excuses and get to work.

But, why does eating healthy have to be so much more expensive?!

I really am happy though! I am happy I am going back to school...I am happy that I have a loving husband who got up at 0530 Monday morning to make me breakfast bf clinicals...I am happy I have a loving family...and most of all I am happy I have a Savior whose love is unconditional!